the dreams (a poem)

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The dreams
by Alexandra Harrison

My grandmother was first
Not the first, but the first of mine to go.
When the clouds had changed and formed a million times over
And the sun had ran into the sky again and again
My mother became the second
And my father followed shortly after.

Everything is a little more cluttered now,
And those hands have become knotted with dust
And it feels as if they are slowing.
That face is feasting and spilling over
The tightness of my shoulders
And the knotting of my fingers
But it will do nothing yet.

Sleeping is like dying for a little while
It feels so heavenly
There is no longer a structure or a loss
And everything plays like a movie.

When I wake time has passed
An hour or days perhaps,
And its killed so much
But I am still alive.
My lips are still wet and warm,
My skin is still breathing and its pores
Are filled with the dirt from yesterday;
That I will wash off again and again
Until the soap makes my arms bleed.

I use lavender acid and have dark and deadly dreams.




Explanation (if you prefer to interpret poetry yourself ignore this)

Hello everyone. I hope you sort of enjoyed that little poem of mine. I always find it really difficult to explain poems such as these because there are just so many ideas to break down. But I know some people find it really helpful when I explain my writing like this so I’m going to try my best to make it as clear as possible. Also I can’t cover everything but feel free to leave questions below!

Stanza 1 – Describes the deaths of family members and I used some subtle descriptions about the sky changing to reflect the passing of time and also clouds remind me of dreams, which is another key idea in the poem that I basically start to set up in this stanza.

Stanza 2 – Now there is a shift into the mind of our protagonist. Referencing to the hands and face describe a clock, which is another symbol of time. Our protagonist is waiting and wishing for death and therefore you have the idea of the clock slowing down due to the dust, which has formed over the length of time they have been waiting (this is metaphorical). The clock is watching them suffer, but has chosen to do nothing.

Stanza 3 – Introduces the idea of dreams and theΒ Β  relationship between reality and death and what our existence means after we stop existing. The adjective ‘heavenly’ is deliberate, as it creates a positive image of death, reflecting the mindset of our protagonist.

Stanza 4 – Describes the disappointment of waking up and still being alive. The idea of dirt is introduced because when the dirt is scrubbed away it symbolizes the protagonist scraping away marks of their existence, the physical evidence of them existing and being part of the Earth. Only when they scrub this away, do they finally commit suicide. Washing away with ‘lavender acid’ which is actually lavender soap, reflects their destructive nature.

I considered concepts of time a lot in this poem after briefly studying Ozymandias by P.B. Shelley today in English. After reading the poem I realized that time holds power over everything and despite any power or glory time will rot everything away. Yes time doesn’t exist, but neither does anything else in this reality, so I guess time is the master of all the other fictional ideas in our heads. In the poem time is the master of death.


Please tell me what you thought of this poem below! Also, I get the majority of my images to go with my poetry from tumblr and pinterest so you can follow them below! πŸ™‚

Tumblr: http://xelaharrison.tumblr.com/
Pinterest: https://uk.pinterest.com/aharrison0517/

Thank you so much for reading,



36 thoughts on “the dreams (a poem)

  1. Beautiful poem πŸ™‚

    It’s a really nice idea providing a description of your thought process behind the writing as well. Newcomers to poetry often feel intimidated so it’s great they can ease themselves in by understanding the intention behind it better.

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    1. I was really questioning putting the explanation behind it. I thought that it may ruin the subtlety, but I know that some people find it really interesting and it helps me understand my work better. Thank you so much for the feedback, it means a lot coming from you!

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  2. So so happy to read your poetry again! This is absolutely beautiful. I love the way the protagonist’s view is described with these subtle hints and how there’s this dark atmosphere overall. I just love it.

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  3. I thought it was a moving and a beautiful poem that touched me. As time passes our loved ones slowly depart as we are focused to confront our own mortality and sometimes we can feel knotted and trapped and helpless and the ways things are but they can be changed by your outlook and belief. It’s poem of continuing to grow to go to terms with death and understand the meaning life, Great job Alex!

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    1. I’m so glad you enjoyed it and found meaning in the words! It’s definitely a poem with big ideas and I was so nervous to post it because of that. But it’s really great to hear such positive feedback, thank you!

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      1. your welcome I am on vacation now so I would love to go back offer you some feedback on your past work. I had the best teacher Eve Sorum hardest class Advanced Poetry reading poems is a joy for me I did it a lot in college and its fun. Great job Alex! Fear not my friend keep posting those poems we all love them me included!

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      2. Yea you are real good. I think it’s nice of you to write your interpretation of the poem for others to read in case they have trouble reading poetry and also I think it is nice to get the writer’s perspective on their work. I appreciate you taking the time to do your write up afterwards.

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  4. hey alex, i’ve missed seeing you and your posts on my reader! great to see you back :3 i love this poem and the analysis-breakdowny thing you’ve written too – i’m a sucker for poetry analysis, except when it’s on my english exam… ;P

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  5. jeez this is deep but i love that in a poem, to have a meaning you can really get into if that makes sense. glad to be reading your beautiful poetry again

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  6. Oh how I missed such lovely poetry! This one is so beautiful, I love it so much! I really love the breakdown of it all because it’s like reading the poetry through a different set of eyes. I’m so happy to read your poetry again! ❀

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  7. i’m not usually into poetry
    but you’re beginning to change that !!
    i don’t know why but i get your poems. i can actually relate
    they’re very pretty.
    idk why, but pretty defines it for me !


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